way my Philosophy of Life
it was mere simple mistake to get into Seoul
to major the Electrical Engineering, I still didní»t like the Electrical
Engineering and could not forget about the Communication Engineering. I was
agonized over transferring my major. I could have just apply to be
transferred to the Communication Engineering Dept. but, somehow, I hesitated
too much. I even worried that the Electrical Engineering professors would
pick on me if they knew that I would try to transfer. For months, I was so
anxious about this trivial matter.
concern grew and grew until I questioned myself why I was so obsessed about
becoming a Communication Engineering researcher. Furthermore, the question
developed into profound philosophical questions like why men exist? What is
the purpose of life?
people must have had this kind of questions about his/her life a few times
at least in a life time. However, it was so serious for me that I could not
even sleep many nights and this was the time when I started smoking, though
I did not smoke even when I was in the army and exchanged my cigarettes
supplied by army for cookies. I spent my whole sophomore year thinking about
Hoping religion might give me a solution to this problem, I
took a correspondence course of Christianity and attended several Sunday
class of father Hyung-Joon Yoon who was known as the dominant father in the
catholic church. In a class, while mentioning about a haunted house, he
said, í░Even though you have never seen ghost, since so many people are
talking about ghosts, you cannot deny the existence of ghosts just because
you have never seen. There will be no smoke if there is no fire.í▒ He was
convincing of audience that God does exist even though you have never seen
him. So what? Is he saying Ghost and God are the same thing? It just
didní»t make sense to me and I had to give up. I just could not
differentiate between religion and superstition. I was confused between
ghosts and God. I could not find any evidence of Godí»s existence from
other than the bible which was written more than 2,000 years ago when men
were all superstitious and did not know anything about science. All we could
find from the bible is superstitious miracle stories which must be
manipulated just because it could not be otherwise explained at the time by
the people who didní»t have any scientific knowledge at all. Now, I had to
give up thinking about religion and kept contemplating the questions.
contemplating for a year, I finally came to a conclusion. Though the wises,
such as Socrates, Jesus or Buddha, who were much smarter than me with much
higher IQ than me perhaps, must also have done their best to answer the same
question and thought they had answers, none of them was real answer accepted
by more than 1/3 of the world population however, and these answers caused
some conflicts among most of the population in the world. Therefore, I could
not agree on any one of them and it would be no use for me to stay up so
to answer to this question any more. Enough is enough. Letí»s get out of
here. So be it.
not find any purpose for my life. I happened to be born caused by a natural
reproduction of my parents. I did not remember that I asked for it. What
would it make difference to me other than for the honor of my children
between I was a #2 Einstein or beggar in the street, once I die? Letí»s
leave my life to its fate. After I die, what would it matter to me? I
doní»t believe in a life after death or the existence of spirits. Ashes to
ashes, dust to dustíŽ What a profound idea I came to realize.
thought about how I should live my life. I had no idea about the purpose of
my life. However, though I was born without any reason, I had neither reason
to kill myself nor courage to do it. Therefore, I would have no choice but
to live as far as I am alive. Finally, I got the idea that I would live my
life by the motto of í░ENJOY TODAYí▒, if I have to live any way and, as
the future is always unknown to everyone, it would be just nothing but the
waist of time and effort even I worry about tomorrow.
My wish or final goal of my life was, right before I die, if I could
still have ability to review my life for a moment and come to the conclusion
that I enjoyed whole my life every day as much as allowed to me under the
circumstances without hurting anyone, I would be fully satisfied and happy.
of this kind of philosophy of life, I had no desire of riches, honor or
ambition and there was no reason to exaggerate or conceal any thing but
could live enjoyable optimistic every day of my life. I could enjoy my life
at work too. I did everything that I liked to do without hesitation as I did
not chase wealth, promotion nor fame. I did not work hard to be a successful
rich guy. I expressed my opinions freely always and I think it has rather
brought me more success on my job. Since a business of my own would be too
risky, hard, and undesirable for me, I never tried to open one. During my
whole life, I wanted to be a safe and easy salaried man rather than
president of a company. Even at the Samsung, where all other directors work
12 hours a day, seven days a week, I never went to work on Sunday nor spent
more than 8 Ę÷ hours a day at the office on weekdays.
married, I made three promises to
Jane. First, since I
had no desire to
be rich or famous, if she wanted to be a wife of rich and
high level guy, it
would be better to give up me. However, instead, we would never be too poor
to worry about food. Second, there would be no other woman for me. Third,
within 10 years, I would take her on a trip to a foreign country. (It was
practically impossible to get a passport for normal citizens of Korea
at the time.) I took my wife to United
11 years after the marriage. Except this, I kept all of my promises.
1968, even though I did not drink, I was stricken with hepatitis. At
surgery, as soon as they injected anesthesia into my vein, I fell in a deep
sleep and woke up to find the surgery was already done. I could not feel
anything while the surgeons were cutting all kind of places of my body
perhaps. I realized that death may be something like this. Once a man dies,
there would be no such kind of things as consciousness, spirit nor another
life after death. Actually, I have experienced my short death with no
dreaming, no thought and completely no experiences.
that time, I was not afraid to die. People keep talking about elongation,
the dignity, and sacredness of life. However, a life is just a part of a
process to me. Suppose there is a paradise where you were sent for a year of
vacation but you had to come back in 10 months while you had a very happy
wonderful life there, would you squirm in sorrow and refuse to return? Human
life must be something like this vacation and it would not be a big deal to
make it little shorter. You just enjoy it while you can, whether it be 10 or
6 months, and just come back when you have to. Moreover, human life is not
just full of happiness but combined with so many sorrows, hardship and
unhappiness and there is no need to be squirming around to live longer.
of this philosophy of life, it doesní»t matter how long I would live to me.
Instead, I will rather do to enjoy my life doing everything I like to do,
such as, eating junk food, smoking cigarettes, drinking several cups of
coffee a day and enjoying egg yolks, though they are all told to be very
harmful for my health and longer life. Also, I do not eat any so called
healthy food if
doesn't taste good to me.
However, I am still healthy enough to play golf for a few days straight. I
guess my optimism is taking care of me better than any other tonics. (I
insist that mental health is much more important than physical health which,
of course, all the medical doctors would not dare to agree with.)
think about it, the reason why I could come up with such a philosophy of
life was because my father stopped me from applying to the Communication
Engineering Dept. of Engineering College. However, I have no grudge on him
but I think I was rather luckier to have had this kind of life,
goal is still... Enjoy Today !!
keep saying that we should live with a valuable achievement of life.
However, I do not understand what is a valuable achievement of life means.
If someone insists me to define the valuable achievement of life, I would
say enjoying everyday itself is my most valuable achievement.